I don’t feel like I have much to offer right now, this time of year and all its transitions set me on edge (anxiety) and put me in a fog of irritability (depression). So let’s just pretend we are sitting together over a cup of coffee, chatting about Jesus and in the words of a friend, “Let the furniture of our hearts be rearranged.”
I want to introduce you to the song “As You Find Me” (Benjamin Hastings, Joel Houston, Matt Crocker, c 2018 Hillsong Publishing). I first heard it during COVID shutdown, surfing through YouTube watching video after video of song stories (i.e., how a song came into being, what it meant to the author, what it has meant to the artists who sing it, etc.) “As You Find Me” has quite a story of healing and proclamation, but I’ll let you look those stories up for yourself. The lyrics spoke to me then and still do time after time when the winds of life make me feel like a tree that won’t or can’t straighten itself up again. I need the multiple messages and scripture reminders this song speaks to my spirit. As an act of worship and obedience, I connect with Jesus through this song and “let the furniture of my heart be rearranged.”
Below are the lyrics. I’m going to tag on the scriptures they make me meditate on and the true promises of Christ that take the lies captive while I worship (2 Corinthians 10:5). Hope this song devo helps you weather your storm.
I've been strong
And I've been broken within a moment
I've been faithful
And I've been reckless at every bend
I've held everything together
And watched it shatter
I've stood tall and I have crumbled
In the same breath
This verse nailed all the stuff I was feeling during shutdown. It still communicates how I sometimes feel as a leader, as a mom, as a teammate who hates to fail those I serve and love, as a created being trying to follow my Creator well. The sentiment of “both/and” couldn’t be communicated much more aptly (Google it, it’s a leadership principle).
What are you strong in and what are you broken in at the same time?
What are you faithful in and what are you reckless with AT THE SAME TIME while you walk with Jesus?
Own it! We have to let Him teach us in our quicksand! Because He said His yoke is easy and His burden is light. (Matthew 11:29)
I have wrestled